The Bears of Blackrock, Books 1 - 3: The Fenn Clan Page 9

  Catherine’s eyebrows shot up, but she didn’t say a word as the old man returned his attention to the television. She glanced around the empty house, almost aching for Bennett to appear and share this silent thought with her, but instead she simply headed into the kitchen – the proper place for any woman as far as Grampy Calhoun was apparently concerned, and started cooking up the old man’s breakfast.

  It was the least she could do, given the free place to live, she thought.

  Cook breakfast and laundry – without question. She didn’t bother asking permission and shot into Grampy’s bedroom, collecting up as much laundry as she could and hustling down the hallway to the laundry closet. Once the first load was in and whooshing away, she returned to the kitchen to start cooking.

  She checked her phone as the eggs sizzled in the pan, shooting off a new text to John, admitting that she was beginning to feel hurt or worried – or both. Then she set it aside and thought of him, doing her best to replicate the perfectly crispy bacon he’d made her the day before.

  She was buttering Grampy’s toast when the front door bust open, and Bennett appeared, coming across the living room with a strange energy.

  “You were up early,” she said, carting the plate to her grandfather. He hummed his pleasure at the sight of his breakfast, declaring his thanks a bit louder than was necessary. She thought the TV was set a little loud this morning. “Do you have any idea when the last time somebody did laundry was? Or how Gramps got that ragin bruise?”

  Bennett ignored her question. “You heard anything from John?”

  Catherine stopped at the kitchen counter, spatula in hand as she made to offer a plate to him. He shook his head.

  “No, actually. Was getting a little worried.”

  Bennett shook his head. “I don’t think you can blame him,” he said, checking his phone. “Yeah, Paul and Jason haven’t heard shit either.”

  “What are you talking about? Are you gonna eat?”

  “No, I’m going back out,” he said, snatching up a piece of bacon before turning toward the front door.

  “Where are you going, Bennett?” Grampy hollered, his mouth full of scrambled egg.

  “Just going out, be back by supper, hopefully.”

  Catherine watched him, her brow furrowed. He stopped by the door. “You might want to get dressed.”

  “Why?”

  Bennett glanced out toward his idling truck. “Deacon’s missing.”

  It was as though someone had dropped a cannonball in her stomach.

  They were barreling down the road in two minutes, Grampy settled back at the house with his TV remote and his cell phone.

  “Where are we going?” She asked, wrapping John’s hooded sweatshirt around her shoulders as he took a corner with a bit less brake than was wise.

  “I’m meeting up with Jason.”

  “When did he go missing?”

  Bennett rolled through a stop sign and onto the main drag. “They found his ambulance out on the rez.”

  Catherine’s hair stood on end. My God, he really was missing.

  “Nobody on the rez is gonna be of any more use than the Fenns, but - it’s Deacon, you know? No one can get ahold of John, so we’re not even sure where they’re searching, yet.”

  Catherine swallowed. She thought of that day at Parkhurst Lake, of the Fenn family all combing the treeline and brush for a sign of something they were certain was there. She’d always wondered why the Fenns were searching at Parkhurst Lake. She never thought for a second that the Fenns she knew could do one of their own harm, yet Alison Fenn disappeared out near Falkirk’s Seat. It made no sense to search in Parkhurst Lake, several miles away. Still, that was where they found her.

  Suddenly, it struck her what brought the family to search for their lost kin in the lake. She remembered John’s comment when he went into the woods to find her phone – ‘It’ll smell like you.’

  Of course they were searching for her in the lake – they could smell that she’d been there.

  “Will you drop me in Falkirk?”

  Bennett took another corner, shooting her a sideways glance. “You’re thinking of going back after yesterday?”

  She swallowed. “John’s brother is missing. I need to be with him.”

  Bennett drove another few minutes without a word, but when the turn for Falkirk’s Seat came up, he took it. Catherine steeled herself for the long walk to John’s house. God damn it, John. You could just let me help, she thought.

  Bennett rolled up to the closed metal gate at the Fenn property, whistling appreciatively. “You’re braver than I.”

  “Thanks. Will you text me if you hear anything from Jason?”

  Bennett nodded. “Of course. Here’s hoping this isn’t like those girls last year.”

  Catherine stopped, searching his face. “What do you mean?”

  He stopped, inspecting his knuckles. “They disappeared from the same spot. Last year.”

  And they were never found. Oh god, they were never found.

  “Call me if you find out anything! I’ll text you when I talk to John.”

  With that, Catherine slammed the door to the truck and straightened the sweatshirt at her collar. Bennett was gone before she’d even made it under the metal gate.

  The walk was familiar, the afternoon cool despite it being mid-August. Still, she felt her heart racing. She’d known Deacon for as long as she’d known John. Deacon had been the one to convince her to ask John to hang out alone the first time. He was the one to hint that John might like her, too – was the one who covered for them both when they were gone on one of their long joyrides. Sadly, the trip to Canada took too long for even charismatic Deacon to smooth over.

  She imagined what Deacon must look like when he was a bear. Was he like Patrick, massive and black, smelling of musk and fur? Was he like John, huge and brown, shaggy fur tufts framing his muzzle? Despite the strangeness of this notion, the thought of Deacon meandering through the brush or tearing into a bee hive made her smile.

  The thought of some misdirected hunter taking a chance at a kill on unpermitted land tore the smile from her face, instantly.

  She jammed her hands in her pockets and doubled her pace.

  Her phone buzzed and she leapt to retrieve it. Finally, John texted, she thought.

  There’s a search party on the Rez. We’re heading down that way.

  Bennett. Not John.

  God damn it, John. Answer your damn phone! Let me help.

  She was so settled into her gait that she barely heard the gravel churning beneath tires behind her. She glanced back and her spine jerked in abject terror as Patrick Fenn climbed out of his pickup truck and came storming down the dirt road at her.

  “You’re becoming a serious fucking problem of mine,” he said, coming to stand over her.

  “Pop! The tribe says the trail went cold.”

  “Where?”

  Patrick didn’t turn away from her, despite calling back to his son; John’s Uncle Terry.

  “Down by the jetty.”

  Patrick’s nostrils flared as he turned back to face her.

  “I want to help,” she said.

  “You want to help? Go back to wherever you came from.”

  Catherine stared up at Patrick Fenn’s dark gray eyes, searching for words to express this sudden surge of feeling. He’d just hit some nerve she didn’t know she had. He hadn’t just hit it, he’d blasted it with a sledgehammer. He had no clue what she came from – no comprehension of the hell she’d left behind.

  She spun on her heel and began to march down the dirt road toward John’s house. It was another mile or so. She could make it in twenty if she lollygagged, and far faster if she hustled.

  “Where the hell do you think you’re going?”

  She kept walking. “Where’s it look like I’m going?”

  She felt a hand at her shoulder, pulling her back, and she jerked free of his grasp. Suddenly, she knew exactly what it was about Patrick Fenn that
was turning her inside out. Huge and mighty as he may seem, at that moment he reminded her of one man and one man only – her stepfather.

  She spun on him like a mongoose fed up with a cocky snake. “Don’t you ever fucking lay a hand on me, again!”

  He startled, but only for an instant. “Don’t you get lippy with me, you -”

  She lunged forward, coming to stand so close to him that her chest grazed his belly. When she spoke, her words were low and calm. “Say it. I fucking dare you.”

  “Are you threatening me, little girl?”

  “No,” she said, glaring up into his bearded face. “I’m not threatening you. I’m warning you. I already shot the last man who talked to me like that, and you’re a much bigger target.”

  Patrick Fenn’s eyes went wide, but she turned, marching down the dirt road, ready to go to war against a bear if necessary.

  “There ain’t nothing for you here, Catherine. You best just leave!”

  She hollered her response to the road ahead, unwilling to give him anymore of her attention. “I’m going to be with John. If you all don’t like it, you can fucking shoot me.”

  The truck began to roll up behind her, keeping pace at her side. She refused to look at Patrick or Terry Fenn.

  “He ain’t there, Catherine.”

  She stopped at the side of the dirt road, turning to meet Terry’s gaze. “Where is he?”

  Patrick growled, turning his face away as Terry leaned across the truck cabin.

  Terry opened his mouth to speak, then paused, as though the words hurt to say. “He never came home last night, either.”

  Catherine’s legs almost gave out beneath her, but this time she steadied herself, unwilling to succumb to the sudden grief she felt.

  He was fine, she chanted in her mind. He’s just fine, Catherine. Everything is ok.

  Yet, at these words she was forced to admit the thing she’d believed since hearing of Deacon’s disappearance – she believed him dead. Now that those thoughts were about John, her heart nearly imploded in her chest.

  “We have to find him!” She said, and the words came in half sobs.

  Terry frowned. “We’re working on it, sweetheart. You best go on, now. We have it under control.”

  Yet his words betrayed no hope. This family knew the way this worked; they’d done this before.

  “Please! I want to help. Please, let me help.”

  Yet, Patrick Fenn laid his foot on the gas and the truck surged past her, kicking up dust and gravel that flew at her, hitting her bare shins.

  She stood on the dirt road, nothing in every direction for miles. She was tempted to head deeper into the Fenn property, seek out Janice and try to be some comfort – or perhaps try to find comfort. Yet, they wouldn’t allow her to be of any use here. If she was going to help find John, she needed to get ahold of Bennett.

  Catherine pulled out her phone, searching for the right words to say what she now knew – that the man she’d been in love with since she was fifteen years old was missing; that she feared in the corners of her soul that she would lose him to the same miserable accident that took the others.

  She hated herself for it, but a part of her silently prayed that if one of them must be lost, let it be Deacon. Let it be that John was just out searching for Deacon somewhere, safe and sound. Deacon’s well-being was certainly important, but she simply didn’t have enough room in her heart to offer him hope. It was all reserved for John now. Every prayer she would ever say again would be for him.

  Please god, let them be prayers of thanks. Please give him back to me.

  She reached the main drag, still holding her phone.

  Can you come get me?

  She waited a moment, staring at her phone. There was zero signal out near the rez, and even less signal out on Falkirk’s Seat. The text wasn’t going through, and she was standing there on the side of the road, hopeless.

  Tears started to creep up, her face contorting as she stood there, scanning the open road for any sign of another person. Yet, there was nothing, and there would continue to be nothing as long as she remained on the Fenn land.

  Catherine set her jaw, swallowed her tears, and started the long trek back toward home.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  The text refused to send, even as she turned the corner into Blackrock. She would be of little use to anyone on foot, the region of the rez they were searching being another ten miles by road, and at least four or five miles through old growth forest. If she was going to join the search, she needed wheels. For the first half hour of her trek back toward home, there wasn’t a single vehicle on the road. This was Maine, and Downeast Maine at that, if she stuck her thumb out to a passing car or truck, not only was there a good chance they’d stop, there was an equally good chance she’d know them by name. Yet the only two cars that passed her barreled right by, without even a second glance. She’d been gone too long. No one recognized her anymore.

  She kept a steady pace, crossing the border into Blackrock by two in the afternoon. Just another mile and a half home.

  “Hey Catie!” She startled, turning to find Paul Merlotte in his rusty Ford. “Why ain’t you with Bennett?”

  She shook her head. “I had him drop me to see John.”

  “Oh yeah? Must be worried sick, huh?”

  She fought to keep her face from contorting in pain. “He wasn’t there.”

  Paul nodded. “Huh. Well, you want a lift home, then?”

  She climbed in, riding in silence as Paul gave a heartfelt explanation for why he was just far too busy to help in the search, and how much trouble those damn reservation laws were, and how the Indian population was ruining the county with their drugs and alcoholism. She did note the empty beer cans strewn across the back seat of his car, but said nothing. Best not anger the driver, she thought.

  Paul dropped her on Grampy Calhoun’s doorstep and raced off to do ‘fuck all’ as far as she was concerned, and she shot into the house. Uncle Bodie’s truck was still gone, as was Bennett’s, so she launched into the house to sweet talk her grandfather into giving her the keys to the four wheeler.

  The house was empty. She called for Grampy, moving from room to room to find the old man, but his bedroom was empty, still smelling of pipe smoke from a recent puff he must’ve had when no one was home to scold him.

  She was sure they were all out joining the search. It doesn’t matter whether you want a man’s company or no, if his family is in danger, everyone with a stitch of character will come to their aide. She was proud to think the Calhouns had that, if not the greatest characters.

  Catherine tried her phone again, the text to Bennett finally going through. She set it aside, standing in the kitchen, the world gone deathly silent. She waited a moment, then two.

  She was off, tearing open the kitchen drawers looking for a set of keys that might unlock the shed and start the ATV. It was Maine, she could hop on that four wheeler and careen around the county – no one would bat an eye. She’d feel a lot less helpless if she could just join the search.

  By five, she’d ransacked every drawer, cabinet, closet, and jacket pocket. All she had to show for it was a Philips head screw driver and a wadded up receipt from Ross’ Department Store.

  Where the fuck does this family keep their keys? She thought.

  Finally, a thought struck her dumb – what if they keep the ATV keys in the shed with the ATV?

  She was halfway outside, Philips Head screwdriver in hand before the thought was finished. She’d jimmy that door open if she damn well had to.

  The padlock was anchored to the door by a massive metal plate and a Philips Head wasn’t going to help unlock it by any means, but she slammed the screwdriver through the lock and tugged. It didn’t even budge. She slid down further, yanking at the handle, praying the metal plate would start shifting, creaking, giving way even a little, but it held fast. She hauled out and kicked the door, yanking the screwdriver out and turning her attention toward the hinges of the double
shed doors.

  The truck barreled down the drive behind her, coupled by a familiar voice. “What the hell are you doing?”

  She glanced back at Bennett as he climbed out of his truck, hustling over toward the house.

  “You got a key to this thing?”

  He shook his head, jingling his key ring in his hand. “Naw, my Dad has the key as far as I know.”

  “Well, I need to get it,” she said, wiping a mist of sweat from her forehead.

  Bennett raised an eyebrow. “Oh, Dad doesn’t let anyone in the shed, Catie. He’s put his workshop in there.”

  “What kind of fucking workshop?”

  “Hey, don’t be mad at me, alright?” He said, displaying his palms. “He makes his own bullets in there now.”

  “Well, where’s the four wheeler?”

  Bennett seemed to be in a hurry, moving toward the front door of the house as he hollered over his shoulder. “Oh man, Gramps sold that thing a year ago at least.”

  “Damn it!” She yelled, kicking the door of the shed again.

  Bennett swung open the screen door, holding it wide as he waved to her. “Just come inside. I’ve gotta grab something, then I’m going back out to join everybody up near the shoreline.”

  “The shoreline?”

  He paused, glancing away. “It’s where they found Greg last time.”

  Catherine’s stomach dropped.

  Stop it, Catherine. Don’t even humor the thought. He’s alive. He’s going to be alright.

  “I’ll wait here for you,” she called, not wanting him to see her pained expression as she fought to regain her composure.

  Bennett gave a quick shrug and disappeared into the house.

  Catherine stood there with the screwdriver still in her hand, and slumped back against the wall of the shed, blowing air out through pursed lips. She would give anything to hear his voice. Anything to have a chance to tell him what he meant to her – that she’d give anything to run away with him, and it didn’t matter where.

  Catherine pulled her phone out of her pocket, squinting to see her signal. The sun was dipped down below the high trees now, making the world around the Calhoun house darker by the minute. She opened up his contact, smiling at the sight of the goofy expression he made when she took his picture, sitting behind the wheel of his truck, giving his best Elvis lip.